Tuesday, November 28, 2006

What Being A Overcomer Means

Believer who doesn’t quit no matter how hard the battle seems, they always stand firm when others have already ran. Always Getting Up Again, Rising Again, and seeing the vision of what God has in store for your life, Not what Man is trying to tear down. When all things seem impossible, and things have gone astray, not letting that stop them, because they heard the voice of God say "Remember I have already given you the "Land"." Knowing the being Victorious means having the "Right Attitude Of The Heart At All Times". That there is NOT EVER any reason for them to ever Run from anyone or any situation ever again, because they are as equally loved and respected by God as everysingle person, creature, and creation on this earth, and that helps them when they are being attacked not to attack back. It is growth, and validating that they are growing with God each and everyday....................That is the most awesome thing to Me to experience...........................sb

Saturday, November 25, 2006

dare to dream of meeting your hearts longing

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals, or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true, I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours or mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!" It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children. It doesn't interest me who you are, or how you came to be here- I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. May 1994

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Things I Am Thankful For For my two wonderful daughters. For a Heart that can stay strong even in the toughest of times, because my heart knows now that I am a loving child of God. That even though my car broke down, found out financial situation was worse than I ever realized, that still I kept my head up and Faith Strong, and God took care of all my needs. That even while I was in that state of uncertainty I still found ways to help others who are in need too. That I have wonderful friends, who I now call family who tell me they Love and care for me and my family all the time. For a job that understands the meaning of Family First. For waking up each day looking forward to what it is going to bring.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

cool reflection on raising a child with a disibilty

I read this and it is so true, it made me go back and reflect when Jesse my daughter with Spina Bifida was born, and how I felt this way in the beginning, and how we have learned, and growed in our journey as a family now. I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this...... When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting. After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland." "Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy." But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay. The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place. So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met. It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts. But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned." And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss. But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Taking a break

I wanted to find the perfect pretty picture to post today, because it will be here for awhile. So I found this picture of a cute dog made of flowers. I am going to take some time to visit with God on the direction He wants for my life. I have been in recovery for three years, and my heart feels so full of life again. This time it is filled with life with the love of God too. So I want to honor this new heart that God has worked hard with me to restore. In the beginning of my recovery I took weeks of just being quite and listening because I did not know God, and I just did not know what else to do. So I want to go back to that now, and figure out what it is I am going to do with all this love, hope, faith, and Grace that has been given to me. I will write from time to time, and want anyone that reads this to know I Sonja Brooks am looking forward to tomorrow, and the weeks to come, what lies ahead actually excites me, and to be able to say in the future God I do this for You is something that I just can't wait to happen...............YSIC Sonja

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  • after 20 years of emotional abuse from my family, I have finally taken the steps to comeback to God's Grace and Love. I have been in recovery at Celebrate Recovery for two and one half years. These journals I will be adding from my first book are my encounters of my first two years of recovery. I am writing a second book Healing Hooves it will be a story about my 12 year old daughter who is wheel chair bound and how she found reached to great elements of success thru horse thearpy
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